Every now and then I come to a place of indecision. I'll be sitting or standing someplace in my house, not sure of what I want to do, and my husband will ask, "What are you thinking?" I'll respond, "I'm wondering what to do with my life."
Sometimes these moments pop up when I find myself in a room that I had a purpose for being in, but in those first few seconds, I have no idea why I'm there. What was I looking for? What was I wanting to get? It takes a few moments and then the reasoning dawns on me and I hop to grab whatever I needed or hop to do whatever I was intending.
Sometimes the question "What am I doing with my life" is an immediate one. What am I going to do in this next step, where am I going to go? Other times I'm wondering what I'll do with my year, or the month, or the week, or the day. I feel lost or restless and in full need of some direction and guidance.
And without faith, it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. (Hebrews 11:6)
This is what I think John the Beloved was experiencing when he was a witness to Jesus' crucifixion. Yet, do you notice where he was? He was near the cross, near Jesus. He watched Jesus, whom he loved, being crucified and I'm sure it was a confusing time. He knew Jesus was innocent, yet here Jesus was, dying a criminal's death. Yet, he was near Jesus.
When we're feeling lost and confused, who/what are we turning to? Where can we be found?
John drew near to Jesus and Jesus gave John his next step. He gave John an important task. The task was to take care of his mom. Do you notice? John gladly takes Mary home.
Faith is simply believing that God exists. It's also believing that God rewards those who seek Him. I love Jeremiah 29:13, "You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart." This is a promise! When we are looking for God, we will find him. When we have faith, we're believing in His existence and that he will reward us with His presence (and everything that comes with God being present).
As we stare down the numerous possibilities that 2017 hold, let us draw near to God. Let's draw near to his presence and seek His face.
God, I pray in every moment of indecision and confusion that you would prompt me to draw near to You. God, I pray that you'd remind me of your presence numerous times each day and that I would hear your voice clearly. Help me to react swiftly and not to procrastinate. In Your Name, Amen.